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cjssystws/cws:
pain
venting
food
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We should probably start sorting the fragments into groups. Here are some trends of traits we have:
-fragmented fragments: sort of a median version of a fragment? a main 'large' fragment and smaller orbital parts that are often specialized or have differing awarnesses of things.
-lower fragment: fragments who cannot communicate and don't seem to have higher functions. just sort of do physical tasks or things in the headspace with no real awareness of anything
-foggy fragments: fragments who are in a sort of 'strange' headspace. sort of in a purgatory, semi aware of the system, semi stuck in some sort of mental construct.
-ninety-percenters: almost fully developed members of the system
-ten percenters: basically a form and name, with very little substance
-whisperers: fragments who are only voices or thoughts
-ghosts: fragments who can interact with us, but 'fade' or 'vanish' if we try to look at them too much.
most if not all of these can be combined, i guess
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With our fibro diagnosis (or medical recognition?) there are many conflicted feelings in the site. The most interesting crew members (to me) are the ones who are angry at these feelings for existing.
For these members, pain is inescapable. That is their mantra. If they hurt, they simply hurt, and there is nothing else to do or say about it. Any other reaction is a waste of time. They do not fear pain, they expect pain. When others recoil in fear or are upset or sad, they do not understand this. Pain is a inevitable thing, a fact of life, and they cannot comprehend why this lesson has not trickled down to every member of our system. It angers them, and they turn on the others who feel their pain is being ignored and tossed aside, and in turn become angry. Neither side can understand the other, and thus a new battle is fought daily. Again, and again. What a useless, but intriguing, little army.
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I, personally, think I feel different about the new names. I felt them before, they still had voices and presences. It's nice now to have their names to put to their faces, I feel relieved and validated rather than anxious and afraid like some of the others.
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God, it can be incredibly annoying to have so many opinions on things be shoved into your face.
I go make a PBJ sandwich?
ohhilovepeanutbutternoitsgrossgetmorejellylessstuffthebreadisbestimnothungryletseatpastanwellfeelsickcutthecrustscanwehaveadrinkinsteadweshouldbedoingworkihatepeanutbutteriloveitkeepitjellyisdeliciouswhycantwehavegrapejaminsteadofstrawberrycanweeattheotherkindofbread....
Ugh.as well as all the other offtopic shit. can you let a man do something on his own for a second?
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I think we have people just to hold our exhaustion. They are so fucking tired of everything. I wish I could sleep enough to make them feel better.
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pain
venting
food
-----
We should probably start sorting the fragments into groups. Here are some trends of traits we have:
-fragmented fragments: sort of a median version of a fragment? a main 'large' fragment and smaller orbital parts that are often specialized or have differing awarnesses of things.
-lower fragment: fragments who cannot communicate and don't seem to have higher functions. just sort of do physical tasks or things in the headspace with no real awareness of anything
-foggy fragments: fragments who are in a sort of 'strange' headspace. sort of in a purgatory, semi aware of the system, semi stuck in some sort of mental construct.
-ninety-percenters: almost fully developed members of the system
-ten percenters: basically a form and name, with very little substance
-whisperers: fragments who are only voices or thoughts
-ghosts: fragments who can interact with us, but 'fade' or 'vanish' if we try to look at them too much.
most if not all of these can be combined, i guess
-----
With our fibro diagnosis (or medical recognition?) there are many conflicted feelings in the site. The most interesting crew members (to me) are the ones who are angry at these feelings for existing.
For these members, pain is inescapable. That is their mantra. If they hurt, they simply hurt, and there is nothing else to do or say about it. Any other reaction is a waste of time. They do not fear pain, they expect pain. When others recoil in fear or are upset or sad, they do not understand this. Pain is a inevitable thing, a fact of life, and they cannot comprehend why this lesson has not trickled down to every member of our system. It angers them, and they turn on the others who feel their pain is being ignored and tossed aside, and in turn become angry. Neither side can understand the other, and thus a new battle is fought daily. Again, and again. What a useless, but intriguing, little army.
------
I, personally, think I feel different about the new names. I felt them before, they still had voices and presences. It's nice now to have their names to put to their faces, I feel relieved and validated rather than anxious and afraid like some of the others.
-----
God, it can be incredibly annoying to have so many opinions on things be shoved into your face.
I go make a PBJ sandwich?
ohhilovepeanutbutternoitsgrossgetmorejellylessstuffthebreadisbestimnothungryletseatpastanwellfeelsickcutthecrustscanwehaveadrinkinsteadweshouldbedoingworkihatepeanutbutteriloveitkeepitjellyisdeliciouswhycantwehavegrapejaminsteadofstrawberrycanweeattheotherkindofbread....
Ugh.as well as all the other offtopic shit. can you let a man do something on his own for a second?
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I think we have people just to hold our exhaustion. They are so fucking tired of everything. I wish I could sleep enough to make them feel better.
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