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Jack on Jax
tw/cw
splitting/fracturing
fusion/integration
identity confusion
So, it's Jack again. I'm finally feeling more like myself.
So, basically I sort of shattered? It was strange. I had taken on a lot of stress and stuff lately to the point where I couldn't handle it, and essentially fell apart into a bunch of little fragments. Which was, to put it lightly, weird. It was strange. And then some other people formed, and I'm back together (for the most part) but they are still here.
It's less like a previous hosts median subsystem, they were literally 'sides' of each other. These guys...they formed the gap between my fragments, they tell me, they held that together for that little period of time. And now those cracks are gone, they are just-mostly-separate people.
For the most part I feel...alright? I certainly am missing a big chunk of my stress and worries, they tell me J ate that for me, the poor fucker. I feel more like myself if I'm honest. Freer, lighter. More...me. So, I guess it was a sort of good thing.
I honestly don't know about my opinions on it all though. I feel...fuzzy. Not quite here or solid. They say that it will pass, hopefully. So, I guess I will be feeling better soon.
My headspace form has changed slightly. I have little reminder strings on my fingers. Each is a little color, a bright thread tied in a cute little bow. I think I like/hate them. I hate having. And I like the colors. I would talk to Dave but they say I'm not really ready for that. Nor am I ready to speak with J, or anyone other than Cammie.
I suppose I'll just...go back to drifting. Its a lot easier than being a person. It feels better too, to be parts. I think that will be better...
Oh, thats a strange thought. Out of character. Jeeze. What is J? I don't really know anything. I need time. Can you ask me about us later?
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OK UMM
Hey!! Cammie here. Jacks sorta in a bit of a inbetween state. Im not sure if we are him or are a part of him or make him at all. But his sort of awareness is..flickering in and out of being.
Ill be honest and say its J. Pretty sure he 'ate' too many bits of Jack when forming. You need to deal with it to give Jack his full...him again. Which is probably for the best considering J is barely anything more than a ball of negative emotions that guy is creepy.
Im pretty sure I'll always be tied to Jack but I dont know if thats necessary for me. Its not anything self centered, J is just too much to Jack.
(Yes, I am the 'Sister' Construct here.)
splitting/fracturing
fusion/integration
identity confusion
So, it's Jack again. I'm finally feeling more like myself.
So, basically I sort of shattered? It was strange. I had taken on a lot of stress and stuff lately to the point where I couldn't handle it, and essentially fell apart into a bunch of little fragments. Which was, to put it lightly, weird. It was strange. And then some other people formed, and I'm back together (for the most part) but they are still here.
It's less like a previous hosts median subsystem, they were literally 'sides' of each other. These guys...they formed the gap between my fragments, they tell me, they held that together for that little period of time. And now those cracks are gone, they are just-mostly-separate people.
For the most part I feel...alright? I certainly am missing a big chunk of my stress and worries, they tell me J ate that for me, the poor fucker. I feel more like myself if I'm honest. Freer, lighter. More...me. So, I guess it was a sort of good thing.
I honestly don't know about my opinions on it all though. I feel...fuzzy. Not quite here or solid. They say that it will pass, hopefully. So, I guess I will be feeling better soon.
My headspace form has changed slightly. I have little reminder strings on my fingers. Each is a little color, a bright thread tied in a cute little bow. I think I like/hate them. I hate having. And I like the colors. I would talk to Dave but they say I'm not really ready for that. Nor am I ready to speak with J, or anyone other than Cammie.
I suppose I'll just...go back to drifting. Its a lot easier than being a person. It feels better too, to be parts. I think that will be better...
Oh, thats a strange thought. Out of character. Jeeze. What is J? I don't really know anything. I need time. Can you ask me about us later?
------
OK UMM
Hey!! Cammie here. Jacks sorta in a bit of a inbetween state. Im not sure if we are him or are a part of him or make him at all. But his sort of awareness is..flickering in and out of being.
Ill be honest and say its J. Pretty sure he 'ate' too many bits of Jack when forming. You need to deal with it to give Jack his full...him again. Which is probably for the best considering J is barely anything more than a ball of negative emotions that guy is creepy.
Im pretty sure I'll always be tied to Jack but I dont know if thats necessary for me. Its not anything self centered, J is just too much to Jack.
(Yes, I am the 'Sister' Construct here.)